Loosing 30 lbs

       Yesterday something happened that I am no stranger to, I ate little to fine during the day at work , then as I am driving home i am ravenous. I stop at Dunkin Donuts and get a Peach Tea and a chocolate stick..... they didn't have a chocolate stick after they told me they did and charged me for it. So then the kid gives me a chocolate glazed donuts, but he gives me two because they screwed up.....this is my life I try to not go crazy but i get two donuts without even asking.... I then went home and finished off a bag of BBQ chips and then made a pork tender loin with baby garlic potatoes.....You would think I would stop there.. Well I decided I wanted to go for a walk. So I did the big loop around my house. At one point in my walk I go so tired I felt like my legs were jell-o and I couldn't even focus on walking. I had to sit down on a guard rail... This from the women who used to take 3-5 mile walks in Keene 3 years ago. Then to get home the only thi...

          Today as I look out my window in my office , Ive come to realize that I have looked out this window for 1 year and nothing has changed for me surrounding my weight. But yet my weight is on my mind everyday all day. Isn't that ironic, for something I think about constantly but don't make any changes. The funny thing is I have a gym membership and belong to weight watchers....but yet I go to the gym rarely and I have been signed up for weight watchers for 3 weeks and have yet to track. I think a lot of people have this problem , they know what they need to do but lack the will power to do it. I think up until this point I always wanted to loose weight for other reasons besides myself...loose weight for my wedding, loose weight to look better for my husband  and the list goes on and on... but i really never wanted to loose it for myself and I think deep down I myself wasn't ready to loose it so i didn't.     ...