Yesterday something happened that I am no stranger to, I ate little to fine during the day at work , then as I am driving home i am ravenous. I stop at Dunkin Donuts and get a Peach Tea and a chocolate stick..... they didn't have a chocolate stick after they told me they did and charged me for it. So then the kid gives me a chocolate glazed donuts, but he gives me two because they screwed up.....this is my life I try to not go crazy but i get two donuts without even asking.... I then went home and finished off a bag of BBQ chips and then made a pork tender loin with baby garlic potatoes.....You would think I would stop there.. Well I decided I wanted to go for a walk. So I did the big loop around my house. At one point in my walk I go so tired I felt like my legs were jell-o and I couldn't even focus on walking. I had to sit down on a guard rail... This from the women who used to take 3-5 mile walks in Keene 3 years ago. Then to get home the only thin I found that would motivate me was getting ice cream...which I did the night before..
This mad me wonder , what has changed in my life. Why this insecent need to feed myself. Is it because i am not fulfilled at home or at work? I am not sure. But I can tell you one thing I AM LAZY. I know i have no energy is because I am not working out and I eat crap food. But once it gets hard I end up stopping.
My goal today : I ate 4 eggs for breakfast today so hopefully that will keep me settled until lunch, then I am going to go to Dunkins and get a large peach tea. That should hold me over until I get home. Upon getting home , this is the tricky part I will cut up some of those peppers and eat them . Perhaps even a bowl of kixs. Then its the waiting game until EJ gets home. We will decide what we want for dinner then we will cook and eat it. I want to try another walk tonight after dinner to see if I have that same reaction... Hopefully not because i want EJ to come with me. But this time no Ice cream . If anythign I can have a Popsicle . And just one! If the walk goes well I will shower and invite EJ to go get a drink with me down town , this way I am not just sitting in front of the TV and also I can get a Cider (sweet) We will see
This mad me wonder , what has changed in my life. Why this insecent need to feed myself. Is it because i am not fulfilled at home or at work? I am not sure. But I can tell you one thing I AM LAZY. I know i have no energy is because I am not working out and I eat crap food. But once it gets hard I end up stopping.
My goal today : I ate 4 eggs for breakfast today so hopefully that will keep me settled until lunch, then I am going to go to Dunkins and get a large peach tea. That should hold me over until I get home. Upon getting home , this is the tricky part I will cut up some of those peppers and eat them . Perhaps even a bowl of kixs. Then its the waiting game until EJ gets home. We will decide what we want for dinner then we will cook and eat it. I want to try another walk tonight after dinner to see if I have that same reaction... Hopefully not because i want EJ to come with me. But this time no Ice cream . If anythign I can have a Popsicle . And just one! If the walk goes well I will shower and invite EJ to go get a drink with me down town , this way I am not just sitting in front of the TV and also I can get a Cider (sweet) We will see
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